These last few weeks have been full of blessings, God ordained meetings and conversations, the opportunity to witness how God is working to make a difference around Texas all the way from Katy Texas up here around the DFW metroplex. Its very humbling to see the greatness of the things that God is doing. He is housing men in garland who would otherwise be on the street because of certain life choices, He is feeding the hungry, clothing those who need it, loving on those who need to be encouraged and to know that they are fully and completely loved...no matter what. He is reaching into the darkness to young girls and women who are sold for what their bodies can offer, all over the world, from India, to Houston, Colorado, you name it...these young ladies are finding hope and a new life for the first time.
In the midst of all the pain, all the atrocities, the mass killings...God is there... In the hunger, homelessness...God is there... With the moms who are lonely because they don't have the village they long for and they aren't sure they are doing what God has called them...God is there... When our dreams and callings seem way to big and it looks as though there is no end...God is there...
He sees it all... He carried it all... This battle, these struggles have all been won.
This is the year God has opened up to us and has said, "you need to get comfortable being uncomfortable." (I'm still protesting this...while moving forward trying to find my footing) I don't like it one bit...but its amazing. In this season of stretching and growing I have seen God move mountains. It is such a humbling thing to witness and rub elbows with those who God is using to rescue those who need someone to fight for them, those who are feeding and clothing the homeless and the hungry. To weep with those who are hurting because life just feels too big and there doesn't seem to be an end. To rejoice with those who have had victories. These things give me the hope and reassurance that God knows what he is doing...I still doubt the fact that choosing me was the right choice but leaning into the fact that he knows more and is infinitely greater than my biggest dream helps.
I don't know how God is going to help us raise the funds to build an orphanage, reach out and love on those in our home town that need it. let alone be a good mom to these two amazing little men that we have been entrusted with. I'm just humbled that God wants to use me and until I know his plan we will be circling this and lots more in prayer because Greater is the one Living inside of me than me living in this world. He can do immeasurably more than I can ever fathom...that is where I'm drawing the strength and wisdom from...
