As I sit down to write this morning, I think about all the times I've sat down over the last few weeks with so much to say yet no words to express how life has felt, how God has used this season of dwelling in uncomfortable to reveal things to us, to just open our eyes to all the things he is up to.
I'm astonished at the things he is willing to reveal to me?!
being uncomfortable is hard... exhausting... it has taught me so much more than I could ever fathom and for that I wouldn't trade it for comfort.
My hubs and I had an intense couple of weeks, starting with construction going from zero due to record amounts of rain to wide open, followed by coming home to water pouring out of our garage. while we were still drying out from the flood our washer broke. To say I was overwhelmed by Tuesday would be a gross understatement, even though God had provided immeasurably more than I could fathom stress hit hard Tuesday. which led to frank conversations and revelations about how God is working and what he is doing in our lives and how He's working.
In this season of being uncomfortable it has renewed the sense of dwelling, constantly striving to abide in him because this, is unknown territory.
Its hard to describe... I find the words hard... its almost like there aren't any words to fully cover what I feel like God is revealing and working through and in our lives.
A few weeks ago I felt like I needed to share part of my story with a group of friends at a picnic. Something that is very uncomfortable for me but I felt drawn to it and the email was sent before I could take it back. As I sat down to write out my story for reference, all the instances of how God has just guided us, opening doors and closing doors at the perfect time. He reminded me that this season of life is no different than the things he has guided us through before. It seems like it but just like he had in our past He has us now. He knows the plans He has for us, He knows where we are going and He knows the path we need to take.
Sure this season is different, the stakes are higher, the tugs at our hearts are deeper and stronger and they should be we have grown so much over the last 8 years, so I shouldn't expect any less but I'm so thankful for the opportunity to be used in the ways he has us set up for. There are big things coming and it scares me but its amazing.
Our boys have such a heart for India, and so much faith its inspiring and humbling. At times I feel like my faith barely makes a blip on the screen of faith but some how its pouring over onto our boys?! WOW!
I don't like being uncomfortable, I like my bubble,
but like I said, I wouldn't change it for the world.
I challenge you to pray big prayers, seek God for the big things and trust him in that.
One thing that came out of my time of testimony for me was these songs that God drew me to in seasons of life that have become prayers of sorts. A few years back I could not get enough of Hillsong's Hosanna, looking back today over where God has brought us I cant help but believe that God is answering those prayers, I didn't even realize I was praying.
When there's things we need the Holy Spirit intercedes, sometimes I believe its through song, especially in this creative, music loving girls soul.
Thank you Jesus for unexpected, heal my heart and make it clean, open up our eyes to the things unseen, break our hearts for what breaks yours, when oceans fall help us keep our eyes above the waves and help me always remember that we can touch the sky when our knees hit the ground.
Hosanna
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NoM0AT8fBvs
Oceans
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dy9nwe9_xzw
Touch the Sky
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y1RQciil7B0
Ephesians 6:19
Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly as I should.
Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through him who gives me strength
