this season of life has been different, challenging, one of those where the biggest part doesn't make much sense. Its a season where a lot of things are up in the air. In bible study this week we studied Revelation 12 about how God protected the woman by preparing a place for her...in the wilderness.
I almost skipped it... I almost missed this epiphany...
because
I was running late... C wasn't feeling well... I had other things I "needed" to do..
but instead we went any way. I'm thankful I did. Life hasn't felt the same for a while. "securities" and comforts taken away one by one. Others pulled rather quickly from under our feet. Leaving us in the midst of "getting comfortable being uncomfortable" raw, real and seemingly alone. God has proven faithful around every turn, in ways beyond our comprehension.
We ended 2015 uncomfortable but finding our grips there, learning to dwell in the security that the Holy Spirit brings outside of worldly things. Coming into 2016 delving deeper...I don't know about you but deeper... feels harder than uncomfortable. It seems more inside out, all encompassing, unknown, surrender...
A year and a half ago God took our lives in a direction we never saw coming. God intertwined our lives with a country we cannot get off our minds and hearts. I cannot go to sleep without thinking about what I need to do. There is a passion, a fire that is burning us to do something from the inside out. The question now is...how?? when? open doors and we will follow...regardless.
wilderness: a wild uncultivated region, uninhabited, deprived of a place and protection of others, lonely, feel a lack, deprivation.
I've been fighting this season. I don't like it...but its where we are and if I just embrace it lean into it, dwell there God will show his abundance. He leads us to these places to take away our dependencies on the world and show us how big and great he is.
There are things in my life that just seem to be sitting in the same place and same condition I left them despite my pleading, there are other things that just aren't going like I planned, and still other things out there that are there and I don't know why. Despite me... Despite what I see... He is working... Having faith in the midst... Dwelling there... waiting there...
Striving each day to focus on the One who has already won. Victory is ours, the beautiful thing about the wilderness that God created...He created it just for her and no matter how long the war rages God will always protect us.
Remembering that...He has us safe and secure despite how we feel in the moment.
