Dependence

Starting from the first few days of our lives we are working to be in a state of independence, fully self sufficient...some of it is spurred on by parents, a lot of it is kid driven I mean from the time they are born they are working towards trying to do things without the help of their parents. Holding their bottle on their own, to getting around without being carried, getting food on their own, feeding themselves...every new skill is met with excitement for all. Then one day you turn around and even though they still need you to cook the raw food they can fully function on snacks within reach without your assistance.


My whole life my parents worked to make sure I was independent, to grow up get an education, get a job, save money and be self sufficient, so that when I got married I wouldn't be dependent on any man. (I don't have anything against this view...just letting you know where I'm coming from) Needless to say my story did not end that way or shall I say start?!


My struggle today...being fully reliant, and dependent on Jesus, the Holy Spirit, The lover of my soul and the one who promises to take care of me fully. He wants us to lean into him, fully rely on him for everything. My peace, my abundance, my empty space, my loneliness, my unanswered prayers, my waiting, my longing, my deepest desires. He wants me to dwell there, he wants me to trust that he has it all together, he has a plan, he has my heart, my life and my all.


I know that it is important to have some independence in this world, but when it comes to God I want my boys to know that full relying on him, will help them achieve their goals, dreams and deepest desires.


As many of you know there are thirteen boys that are always heavy on our hearts and minds, they need a home, they need sponsers, they need someone to love them. The great thing?! the great provider Loves them more than we can fathom and he has them in his hands, he loves them, dearly and Hes working all things together to provide for them...but where I'm sitting I cant see how or where he is working. we are trying to see, but we can so for now we knell before the father and lay them along with all our burdens at his feet and trust that he can carry them and handle them better than we can.


we have a friend who is coming in town from india, last weekend I felt like I needed to get in touch with a friend and fellow blogger who loves Jesus, and like I tend to do I procrastinated...and I couldn't find the words...then on sunday she contacts me about writing about our story. Our India story. She captured it so perfectly.


I love how God intersects paths, just when circumstances seem bleek, overwhelming, he steps in an shows how big he is and how he has it abundantly handled.


I got her newsletter at the perfect time today...reminded me of where we need to focus no matter what our eyes may see or our hearts may fear.


Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7


oh and you should definitely check out Jackie Hooks and Pruning Hooks...Jesus is Big Ya'll